yesterday once again as always wen i meet akil , the word wavelength often came to my mind... we spoke watever you call openhearted or straight talk sort of stuff after a very long time... I can write about so many other things or so many other people but i want to tell something about akil before i lose my flow... if i have to use one correct word to describe him it would be "UNDER ACHIEVER"... I am 21 yrs may i haven't seen much of the world but in my little word akil is d best guy Ive seen and am sure that even my unconscious talks during my sleep wouldn't let that statement down... what makes him so very different from the others is his expression of thought.. that's so good at times even an enemy would fall into the trap of his words.. another good thing is his powerful usage of the language he communicates in.. if 1 wants to know how to win an argument or how to get out with an upper hand even in the most difficult or rather what you call the unfamiliar territory, learn it from him.. very few guys have dis.. Ive lost the sequence dude(I'll come back).. I think Ive seen almost all his different phases d best and the worst but believe me even his worst phase would be a dream phase for many guys.. i call him a "self dabba" fellow but deep within my heart i feel that whatever he speaks about himself are still under rated.. he is something more than that... now u mite be surprised y is dis fellow talking about akil so much.. people call him eccentric i think or what u call hyperactive or what ever many adjectives they have in their mind about him.. so i want to just tel 1 thing that akil is in a very wrong place .. for me he doesn't belong to this common league of u n me and from that point the whole argument starts.. i call him an underachiever because he hasn't realized even 10 percent of his potential.. i firmly believed that he is cut out for bigger things or u can say better things.. the league of schumachers sachins kalams and federers(ur fb says)... these guys have entered that league with their hard-work dedication and passion and besides its their commitment which makes them different from the rest... very few people can go there and those who have that potential to be there but don't realize it are called under achievers... so its for you to decide in which league u want to in the next 30 yrs.. i would prefer the latter... u have lost your way and your in a wrong place rite now i hope u get back to your rite destination... i have written this as a wake up call for 1 person and if he still doesn't wake up den one day as a part of the common man league he would be writing the same sort of thing to other underachievers... for all those guys out there ,realizing your potential is very important because that's what drives you constantly to the only aim of the entire mankind that is to "MAKE THIS WORLD A BETTER PLACE TO LIVE IN" and only we can do that... and this is only for u akil " DON'T LET ME DOWN" and finally my brother " DON'T LET ME DOWN" because i would love to hate myself one day for calling both of ul underachievers.... il end it of with a famous quote from swami vivekananda " ARISE AWAKE AND STOP NOT TILL THE GOAL IS REACHED" love u all....
Sunday, April 4, 2010
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ReplyDeleteThank u mama..Firstly you should actually know something,"i woke up in the middle of the night to drink water n saw ur msg sent late last night on my cellphone to check what you wrote for me immediately after i wake up the next morning,but just dint wanna sleep but rather switched on my laptop to check what you exactly wrote on me,that much i want to hear from you about me(infact only YOU ON ME in any amount of high dosage i can accept,keeping all my other friends in the other clan on listening to their suggestions or views for my betterment)...To tell frankly,was even feared a little to see the one thing i hate the most about myself-when u point out about a kind of drawback i posess in my writing or sometimes even the way of speaking:which is 'SELF DABBA' what you term and i feel guilty at times of doing that pointed out thing by you,or the very fact that many people might feel nostalgic at that very fact of me doing so:(,(the practice under single quotes above is something on which u try to say has to be corrected for the better things i can actually do or write about rather than writing about myself)....:)
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ReplyDeleteI totally agree with your observation,infact as ive said u when we talked 2 days before in our marathon informative conversation at your home-even my bestest friend in engg. TEJA was like one day when i said dheeraj said like this dude about my blog,that,"even i wanted to tell you the same thing but couldnt express out exactly which ur friend dheeraj did to perfection"(as he felt the same feeling persisted in him when he went through certain posts in my blog),FOR which i should say this to you here for the frankness with which u wrote this post for my betterment,"I dont ever deny that infact some posts i rather write for the intent of praising myself itself either directly or indirectly or dont know for what exactly...but as ive said u they are more of the kind of writings about myself on my blog with an intent
-to relieve myself whenever i'm in distress or sad,
-to get grounded back after letting out my heights of happiness on my blog so that i get a little balanced and dont overly dance off in joy with everyone else in this world whom i meet,n they dont get even more pissed off for for that very fact of me being in that overwhelming joy-rather than baring me for that 'SELF DABBA' pn my blog
-to really really give my every bit of 100% of what feeling i actually posess for that special someone which i knw somewhere down the lane,could be better if it is intendedly written for the purpose of my girl knowing what i posess about her,then would be better if i send it only to her[but even there i am like selfish in a sense that because for the passion with which i write about her or it or our relation or what happened between us or what do i expect should happen in future or what i expect from her,i feel for the joblessness or the less productive thing i'm actually even doing which i am conscious too(that is using my energy levels that unidirectionally towards her,which isnt required but pleases me and drives me to write even more and more)why dont i even let that out to all my friends and wellwishers- only intended to see that as a by product of what i write for my satisfaction i even get appraisals for the actual art form which involves in rhyming the words there,or to keep me driving for writing more n more sort of those things or whatever,feeling that though people might think why this idiot is always writing about her only or in a sense about himself??why should we actually read about him??
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ReplyDelete-->It is atleast giving me a chance to expose what i feel and im ready to accept any kind of views,critical views from my friends(more of a kind that,this might lead to an healthy conversation somewhere down the commenting streak by my friends maybe out of friendship(i replaced admiration with friendship before the brackets getting conscious that again u dont point out its 'self dabba':P) towards me as a person-though they dont actually like firmly what i write,like when i wrote a post "an unforgettable day-lead to relishing memories,which is something even not actually intended for self dabba to tell you frankly-but lead it to a dialogue from INDIRA which i will nevere ever forget throughout my life because of the truth the line posesses and what actually would get me into the track of what i believe in even in the so much noise present around,where she said akil ,"IT IS ONLY HOPE THAT DRIVES US IN LIFE AND THAT ULTIMATE HOPE COMES ONLY FROM THE LORD",so somewhere down the lane as it gets almost 3 years since ive started blogging dated back to september-2007 what i wanted to let you know which ive even said u the other day in our conversation is that 10 or 15 such above kind of mentioned catchy profound lines,or the kind off appraisals i recieved for some posts,or the lessons i learnt unknowingly about relationships by writing about what i encountered,the very fact i learnt that it makes me light and get back to my happiness by letting out my thoughts in depression or sadness AND it makes me grounded back n not overly ring peoples ears about my happiness stabilising a little of me to normal state by actually letting out even happiness(in a sense,after doing itself only,my daily meeting friends in engg. point out sarcastically on why i am ringing their ears that much saying u r in full josh today,when i actually tend to tell them i wrote a new post on my blog about lets say eg.: ecstasy or industrial tour experience and goodtimes-just explaining the gist of the post itself people are like sort of pissed off,aapu raa entha sepu maatlaaduthaaav-but i feel for myself if i dont let that out at blog or writing it will make me go even more ga ga ga ga with everyone)....
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ReplyDeleteALL THE ABOVE kind of things or observations of what ive learnt on or from blogging is something i OPTIMISTICALLY look at as the very fact that helped me in getting a little better than what i am
ALTHOUGH and BUT BUT BUT i still do accept and understand your point and very fact of,"I n IT(me writing) would be much more better for me and even for readeers of IT if i write on general issues,which i am conscious off as a very important suggestion from the MOST HEALTHIEST CRITIC EVER IN MY LIFE for the past 10 years since 7th class to the present,(even though for this long the amount of time we spent with each other oscillated from every day on an average 8 hours at school to almost 12 hours in inter to maybe once in a fortnight in engg.) & which might even transform because of the diverse fields we might get into in future n maybe even transform to once in a month BUT
"The kind of rapport and zeal and influence we posess over each other;which is like for me anything what dheeraj alone says about me,i will not get pissed off to hear about it or would rather for a moment accept it to be true and think after considering what he said is true on if whether it is true,how can i ever get better in my aspects which he projects to be dents and hampering my even getting better n reach the elite best,the ever prevailing endless political issues discussions we have,the kind of like mentalities n thought processes we almost similarly posess about most of the issues,the kind of healthy arguments we have even on things which we r firmly against each others views,the kind of very write up which u wrote about me on which i am wordless,speechless and even expressionless(similar to what uve said ur lost let me get back,somehow i cant even get back on what i actually wanted to say about multiple things after reading the post u wrote on me)....i feel even here i was lost in getting carried away in proving you on and about my blog but in a sense i feel i was verbose all the while in the comment,as a gist and immediate after effect-i felt everything what you said is about mostly what i write (i mean after 65 minutes ive actually finished reading ur post)...now it reminds me only of two things as a gist what uve wrote there....
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ReplyDelete1.) You have praised me overwhelmingly which is something i feel i dont deserve & what actually even i feel u wasted ur art form of writing seriously in writing about something or someone which is worthless(seriously im telling you,i mean it from the bottom of my heart ,i'm not telling you this because u have to say me back that no raaa u r worth of it-i dont want that shit anymore......i'm tired seriously tired of people praising me for my skillset or what i can study or how much i can analysingly think about a subject or how much i can endlessly win or fight in a debate even when i stick on a point which majority people feel is wrong or recieving this compliments on what all i can do...BUT ACTUALLY HAVE DONE NOTHING,NOTHING WORTHWHILE OR PRAISEWORTHY-which pisses me off to the core...(now maybe when i write the last 5 6 sentences seperated with commas in lines above OR the line in capital i now unknowingly again tend to realise this was what u actually wrote about me-as u said the marathon chat we had two days back,"get it going in you with the zeal and commitment and hardwork,fix short term long term goals n just do it,rather than pointlessly and clumsily and lazily refusing to think about it n just taking optimistically things as they are or being content with what SHIT i am now,when i can surely be something way way better(n ive said u why i dont say this out because,for the very fact of letting out my emotions itself on blog ,people who know me very well i.e. you or teja or ashwin feel im doing self dabba)....but not getting to the mind on what all i had to or can actually be witha tleast minimum efforts i could put either in inter or in engg. and yet even expressing out the very fact that i know for myself that "i am under performing is what if i get to my mind,its like i cant keep things for myself raa i let it out in josh or out of hosh or whatever with my closest buddies....n its more like i feel that for the nothing i actually achieved or did worthwhile for what i can do,even if i speak that out-if people dont understand that why i am saying that it will make them feel even more negative about me that,"matter em ledhu kani,peekedhi emi ledhu kani ee egrudu maathram masthu undhi"ane fact is that i dont get that to my mind that i am underperformed.....thats my problem...
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N something u dont get to ur mind is something u cant committedly work for.....which is what i am worried or sadenned about...
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THOUGH EVEN FOR THIS I FEEL THE SOLUTION IS GET IT TO YOUR MIND ON WHAT YOU WANT TO BECOME(irrespective of whether even u accidentally let know people around u what u wanna become or what u aspire to become n they feel nostalgic about it)AND BE SILENT IN NOT LETTING THAT OUT TO PEOPLE BUT ALWAYS ALWAYS BE CONSCIOUS OF WORKING TOWARDS IT IS THE SOLUTION FOR IT....that is something i have to put into action...!!!
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1.)the point i wrote above as 1.) before which i wanted to write two points on what exactly i learn from ur blog
2.) i now cant figure out almost exactly on what main points you write n i have to learn from ur post because it is almost 1 n half hour since ive finished reading the post and cant remember because of the high intensity in which i wanted to say you all the things ive written above
3.) the very first instance n the starting parts of what u wrote on me,i felt so excited and proud that someone as profound as dheeraj,AS PROFOUND AS DHEERAJ wrote about me praising me for certain things or infact even took out time to write about me, n he looking at me as something that big n the potential in me to reach that high(as i self dabbaly(wrong phrase) boast about myself in my about me's on FB n orkut...is something which makes me happy...very happy
4.) whosoever people read this,my friends all whom i would pakka refer to read this for two things a.) on what u feel i can be and i am under peformer n why you feel so
b.) the very fact you mentioned a year back or so that fine,u write for pleasure and let oput ur thoughts n happiness,u can stabilise or neutralise it by writing some worst moments of urs in engineering so that people feel or actually u r doing something which is not just praising urself.......which i culdnt do but ur post does that thing on me...
5.) i know i have becomne damn damn WORDY or VERBOSE in my whole comment or i dnt know infact or cant recollect what all i actually wrote above though more than 70 to 80% in the whole length of my comment for u before this P.S. thing i was conscious of again not boasting about myself,or being wordy.....let me tell u this dheeraj,"i never think much on whatt all i comment,it just flows from my heart....this time initially it got so tougher to write in that flow because i knew if i wrote it like that it would be 10 times more wordy than this n more in length which is not required n u will be pisswed off to read....but would have been even more lost in letting out to you what i wanted to...."
6.) wanted to write 2 or 3 points in p.s. but ended up writing these many...u brought me to that flow of expressing out as much as possible to the bestest buddy ever of mine..
7.) Immediately after i finished reading the post i thought i should definitely write a post on you with the very facts of what you are and what all u can do TRUTHFULLY than the virtual expectations or hope of urs or fakes u wrote about me (which i feel truely is something u wrote lot lot lot lot lot lot....lot more than what i deserve or gets lessened of what i deserve because of the very fact that i talk about myself & dont do anything worthwhile(this is the third time i guess in my whole comment i guess i wrote what i deserve,am happy i finally atlast atleast did that...[i dont knw what im speaking raaa...am lost really....!!!!
8.) this post of urs is like the best ever learning ive ever llearned,every time i feel i read this ill learn something new about me,something new about getting better,something new about learning what hampers me,something new on how i have to be confident and at the same time condition my energy levels to something productive...!!!! :):):):):)
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ReplyDeletethank you very much for this,i feel privileged to be the topic of a write up for a maestro like you!!!(i dint become any emotional...i said what i felt all through).....
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maybe each time i read i will put in fresh comments .....thanks bye....:):):)
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IT FEELS LIKE I AM SHORT OF WORDS SERIOUSLY EVEN AFTER HAVING SAID THAT MUCH SO REPEATEDLY....
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easily the best ever thing ive ever read which convinced and influenced and made me interested and happy for what it is!!!:):):):):)
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one of the most unforgettable day in my life(5-4-2010)...ill mark it....
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tried to post the comment after finishing reading it at 5:00 A.M. couls successfully two hopurs later..!!!:):)
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ReplyDeletedude this is the comment after i read ur post for the second time after i returned back home from mng jog.....
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1.)"i felt after finishing the whole comment by 7:00 n hurrying back to drop my sis n mom in a temple for pooja and going to jog along with teja that shit!!! am troubling dheeraj by writing that much...hehehhehe i knw although u wont mind..;)....troubling ante could have condensed even more emo ani anpinchindhi whole through the jog n while going n coming from jog......but i have to sit another 2 hours now for that ...hahahhaha so light ani odhlesina....
2.)after i read it for second time now,after knowing what i comment i feel i commented more on something which u actually dint much point out ....or rather u for a first time tried to say a lil atleast in my favour that self dabba what i do is not that wrong ani or whatever......BUT BUT i realise it more for myself today when u even accept it(n all other days when u dint).....that instead of looking optimistically just at what i gained from doing that as mentioned in whole saaga above....i could have probably learnt much much much more if i did on general issues even in a sense of satisfaction,knowledge, public reviews n all etc etc which was also something u said that night in marathon chat of urs...:D...:):):)....
3.) u message me that whatever u wrote u wrote from the bottom of the heart,when i reply u mng i commented u on post check out n then get back when u asked me whether u like it?i said u to read the comments n get back naa....the reason i said u that is...even i wanted you to know that "WHAT I WROTE ABOVE ALSO IS SERIOUSLY FROM MY HEART ABOUT YOU AND EVEN ABOUT ME ".....
"Too much of TALKING & no WORKING n WALKING makes akil a dull boy"...!!!!
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"all his activeness is transformed or conditioned to things which are of not too productive,i realise it from long,wanted to implement from long.....hoping that the time is ripe now....n let me wish that my hope n realisation comes true through my execution"
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N here it ends...i feel; now satisfied to have said everything what i want....pakka ante pakka i feel what u said is not that has to be written but talked to each other,cos it has something which has to be debated and sdiscussed about rather than u or me assuming things about ourselves or each others...n hence n so i wrote these big big comments ...:):):)
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am happy i finished saying 99% on what i wanted to say about the issue n topic n feeds of urs on me mama!!!!:):):)
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2 or 3 days later ...ill send u from all these comments the words in capitals in comment or the main gist or path breaking points in this whole thing which i want to remember always becos of this (u n me)...so that u n i fix that in mind out of reality!!!:):):)
Also because always i cant read all my comments too what i wrote here to learn what i actually want to keep in mind from it!!!:):):)
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N so it ends....keep going ...rock onn!!!:):):)
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"ONE OF THE AWESOMEST CONVERSATIONS I EVER HAD IN MY LIFE" Date : 5-4-2010 with bestest buddy: DHEERAJ....Topic : His virtual illusions;) and my getting him back grounded to reality on me:P....hahahah( a style of self dabba u see...;)...) ...u thought me two days back,in that marathon conv. giving RGV as prime example...:P..:))...=))
i dont know how u feel rite now but i feel that both of us are on top of a virtual world ahere only theory exists... the reason i rote abt u is tht i dont want u to be a wasted guy... i jst want to tell 1 thng ra i thng tht can exactly tell and wat u can understand perfectly n am sure out ouf all those who read this stuff only u can understand it better than every1....
ReplyDeleteI CALLED U THE BEST GUY I HAVE MET BUT ACCORDING TO ME BEING THE BEST AND BEING A PERFECTIONIST ARE NOT SYNONYMS AND THE ONLY THING I WANT U TO DO IS "PROVE ME RONG"
hahahhaha...dheeraj at his vintage best...!!!:):):) i like the way you said it...u r at ur best writing flow,u too dont waste it on using it over least productive things like me....;)...:P.....But i will see to it that your hope will come true and i prove you wrong,n u will be the happiest in this world of all things,for me having proved u wrong in this fact!!!:):)
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ReplyDeletewhoa! after reading the entire write up and your comments, one thing is clear to me akil, that dheeraj knows you in and out. it's like he has done a PhD on you, the whole description is so right, although certain points have been exaggerated but at the end of it i felt that nobody after your family except dheeraj could have known you this well.
ReplyDeletecoming to the write up, i wont completely agree with dheeraj and call you an underachiever bcoz that's a heavy word and must be used only for a person who has exhausted all his life and succeeded in nothing.
you are still at the beginning of your journey and inspite of that you've managed to achieve a lot in your life. obviously you havent stepped out into the world to list your major achievements but lemme tell you, each step in life we take forward is an achievement for us and we musnt forget that everyday we live and get out alive is an achievement (i know this may sound funny but if you ponder you'll realize how true it is). you of course have bigger achievements than just living, you are an above average engineering student, a fantastic writer, an impressive speaker, a good organizer(your fest was a hit), a smooth talker and above all a great human being!!
i personally think it's okay to be a little(only a little) self dabba types bcoz in this world of cut throat competition nobody praises anyone except themselves, and it's only your PR skills that'll give you an edge over the others. :) so the more you speak about your skills to ppl, the stronger you anchor yourself in the corporate world. so praise yourself (but know the limit)
talking about your writings, i think they are just outstanding, except that some are too lengthy and require time but then when you get to reading, you cant seem to get enough of it. dheeraj too writes very well, he might get offended that i am praising him too little but this blog is about you, so havent said much about him. i'll just say one thing that he will always remain my favorite senior from school. :)
coming back, your bonding with your friends too is exemplary. the great rapport you and your friends especially dheeraj and you share is great. have seen you both from school and i am surprised that you both are still such thick friends inspite of the many passing years. i hope you both always remain this way! :)
lastly i'd wanna say that even if you think you havent achieved enough i'd say the entire life is left for you to do that. referring to your status, i just wanna tell you that abdul kalam, amitabh bachchan, bill gates have been able to build their reputation as great men only over a period of time, maybe sports personalities like sachin and federer have found success fast but then success for sportmens is short lived. like the saying goes rome was not built in a day and so doesnt fame build in a single night and the fame that is built in one night vanishes the same night!
just keep going the way you are and be very focussed on your goal and you'll definitely be in the coveted league some day!
all d best! :)
Indira Shukla
THANK YOU INDI JEE.....as awesome as ever ur this comment is.....It is full of profoundity..:D....thanks for it....hehehheh
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dheeraj will be happy to c ur commet on his blog for sure..!!!:D:D
grt dude..both of u..true intellectuals....
ReplyDeletemay u guyz achieve all d success in life...nd bring laurels 2 dis wonderful nation...
kudos..bro